I had wondered for years.
Wondered what happened? If I had truly done anything wrong?
I sense things.
I know things.
And I've long known that something had changed, but didn't know what.
Today. I finally got it.
I am not there and haven't been in years.
Something happens when you are not there to share your truth.
If you cannot speak to your behalf. Your side of the equation.
The other half of the equation takes hold and shapes the story to their preference.
They feed the plot.
My wild guess is that many have heard your stories.
My wild guess is that there is more than just facts feeding into these stories.
The fuel behind all of this has MUCH more history here than just me.
Your history and your ego of this equation is a force.
An undeniable force.
A force that has been shaping and influencing minds for eons.
A force that senses fear, weakness, indifference and starts there.
A force that can ignite a hundred fires but cannot truly touch his own.
I see it all.
And I've been tangled in this web for years trying not to care.
Trying to move on. Trying to forget and let go.
But thats just it. I care and I care to my core.
I care about the minds you choose to infect and this plot you keep feeding.
And honestly, I didn't quite know how to move on while still caring.
Knowing that those whom I was once close to and cared about are infected with your spit fire.
I have tangled myself in and out of this equation.
My dad would say "Ange, everyone's true colors and the truth eventually comes out"
Maybe he is right.